61st

ARGHHHH! There is so many thoughts in my head and I'm so confuse which one of those thoughts that I'm going to share with you, guys! Ada perasaan seneng, bangga, sedih, kangen, mencoba profesional, was-was, daaaaaan banyak banget!

But, now I'm feeling sad. It's about my momma. I love her so much. She's getting older and older, year by year. This year she's gonna be 61st,  and still working, go to many places in Jabodetabek just to find our family enough money...

Then I cry... I'm crying now. How old she is now, but she's keep working.

My momma just called me and we have a small chit chat on the phone. I told her that I'm going to go to back home tomorrow. I miss home. And I miss her. She told me that "Come, I'll be going to Puncak tomorrow morning with papa to go to a reunion, but we'll not stay overnight, we'll just have lunch and meet the people. We'll arrive at home maybe around evening." "Ok mommy," I said.

In our conversation I also asked her how about her condition. Last talk, she said to me that she was a little bit sick. But today she said that sometime she feel queasy. I know why she become like that. She didn't have a good meal to her body. She's vegetarian and only eat vegetables and fruits. Milk and cheese are her favorites. She became a vegetarian since she was a child. She didn't want to be a veg. Her veg is connatural. She absolutely couldn't eat meat, every kind of meat. She could dizzy if she see a fried fish on the table, and the worst, she could get dizziness just from the smell of the fish, fried or not. Even the oil that use to fry a fish then that oil use to make a sauteed vegetables, she can't. She can't eat that sauteed vegetables.

So, can you imagine how difficult she is just for have a good meal in the middle of  the carnivores that choose to eat more meat than vegetables and in the middle of her rush?

I hope you'll getting better mom and have many good meals. I'm sorry I'm not there for you right now. I'm trying now to be a big girl, your big girl. So you don't have to go again around Jabodetabek with a motorcycle with papa, you just could get some rest and do what you like to do. Do delight activities and get some fun. Just wish me luck that someday, in the near future, I'll be a success woman, with passion and joyfulness, I'll be doing my fantastic job and make you proud...